Off Topic: Lonliness

I'm sorry that this is off topic but I'm feeling a bit down and I feel the need to get something off my chest.

Does anybody else ever get so lonely that they just end up listening to sad music and crying pitifully? It really seems that when I feel like this and need somebody to talk to the most, nobody is around. I realize that I am an overly sensitive and a pretty needy person but that isn't something that I want to change about myself. It's something I both love and hate about myself. There's really no specific reason I'm upset...really...I don't know. I just get to the point to where I don't think I have a hope in the world to actually find and have what I truly want. The only thing in this cruel, yet beautiful, world that I want.

Also, I am a huge fan of glasses, as you can probably tell. I have found though that they are purely annoying when crying, especially when you can barely see without them.

..."So I need you, so I need you..."

And I'm going to end with one of my favorite songs...

VNV NATION: "Illusion"

"I know it's hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don't want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you're human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don't cry now

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That's not what I believe, and it doesn't matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I'm still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to change for all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion always trying to change you

Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, please don't leave here
I don't want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don't go, I want you to stay
I'm begging you please, oh please don't leave here
I don't want you to change for all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion always trying to change you"

Love,
*Kimmie*