Screams of an emotionally disturbed girl.

I just want to let it all out, scream it all out, bleed it all out. I just want you to feel what I feel, see what I see, hear the awful things that I do. I do...

Normalcy is a dream of mine but it's one step forward and ten steps back...ten huge steps! Strength is welcomed, please come to me, I beg you. I don't want to regret my entire life...

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Missing you!

Just a quick hello to all of you. M and I are doing well and I miss this blog and all of you dearly. I hope to start posting more often...well, more often than not at all. :P Hope everyone has been having a spanking good time! Looove to all!

Control Issues

My fiance (Oh, yes! I'm engaged!) has brought to my attention that I have a major issue with control. I try to control anything and everything around me. I always knew I did...but it didn't truly hit me until he sat me down and told me. I get very upset and moody when I can't control a situation. I think this is the reason I get angry sometimes when I'm being spanked, even when I want to be spanked! It's ridiculous, yet I still can't completely just let go. When receiving a spanking it always seems to go from anger (from the fact that I feel like I can not take the pain so I get angry at myself and take it out on others sometimes...) to laughing when the endorphins kick in. It has been pointed out to me that it can be quite distracting in videos. I need to find a way to overcome this. Anyways, I'm a bit distracted at the moment so I'll be back later, perhaps.

Love to all!

*Kimmie*